A while back I had lent a then friend some money. It wasn’t just $5 or $10, it was $150. I really didn’t want to give that person any money because I knew that person would never pay me back. I pitied my Internet friend and so I decided to help because Internet Friend was/is also homeless. I hadn’t spoken to this former friend in a month or two because I was done allowing this individual to say offensive things about my beliefs. The former friend may not have directly insulted me, but the “friend” was insulting everything I ever believed in so that “friend” may as well have been insulting me directly.
I told that “friend” that God exists because He removes people like that toxic person from my life and hadn’t spoken since. A while has passed since that incident. I decided to check out my former friend’s Twitter a day or two ago to see if former friend’s way has changed at all after we stopped being friends. That person is still the same old self-pitying individual.
Part of me wants to send a message asking about my money. Another part of me keeps telling myself I should be glad such an ungrateful person like that is no longer in my life. I don’t need that person’s toxic energy and that I should cut my losses. It’s the fact that this individual thinks it can pester me for my money and then insult me all in the same breath has me flabbergasted.
I’m tempted to tag this person so that people know who I am talking about but I’m trying to be mature about it. And that person’s life is miserable enough. But does that person have the right to demand me to give some of my hard earned money and then not pay me back just because that person’s life is so miserable? Does that person have the right to treat me the way that person did?
I could have gone out to eat with that $150 and enjoyed myself. I didn’t have to lend it to that bastard, especially knowing that person would not pay me back. It’s not my problem to solve other people’s problems. I’ve been better about money lately and I’m not going to give it away like that ever again. This was a while back.
I kept wondering if I was in that same exact situation – homeless, would that same person asking me for money give me $150 if I asked? I kept wondering that.
Here’s what will happen if I decide to send a message:
1- I’m still not going to get my money back even if I say a few choice words to that person so what’s the point to say anything at all after we have not talked in almost two months?
2- That person still will not find anything wrong with the way it thinks.
So after analyzing this situation, I’m just going to bite my tongue and continue to try to not let it bother me and to focus on the good people in my life.
I pray that some good karma will come my way after this person treated me so horribly and didn’t pay me back.
This is why I haven’t lent people money in a long time. Only one person has ever attempted to pay me back. The next time anyone ever asks me for money, I’m going to say no because no one ever really pays me back. And plus, I have my own bills to pay.