Posted in Blog, Inspirations

I just can’t be mean even if I tried.

I have two homeless former friends.  However, this post is about the former friend that I knew since we were 14-years-old.  I had enough reading his self-pitying tweets how he was saying no one would help him.  I was bored so I kept checking up on his Twitter even though we hadn’t talked in 3 years.  He was complaining about offing himself and how he’s a disappointment to his mother and family.  His younger brother is already dead and now he’s a failure.  I said the following things to him so he wouldn’t be a failure to his family.

Rather than being mean and rejoicing in his failures for what he did to me, I decided to send him a text to see if he would listen to what I say…especially when he says how no one wants to help him.

I had texted him on a Google Voice number and didn’t say who I was.  We hadn’t talked in 3 years.  And even though we didn’t talk in 3 years he knew who I was without saying my name, lmao!  I’m thinking what a jackass.  He ended a 14+ year old friendship for no reason.  And now he’s complaining about his other friends who he knew for 14 years doing that to him and he did that to me.

I told him I was not mad anymore for what he did since he’s got bigger issues being homeless in San Francisco and no one helping him.

I will not give him any money but I told him how he could make some money fast.

I gave him some ideas of how to get out of the hot sun and cold nights.

I said I would work two jobs and work until midnight, that way I would have a place to go and I’m making money while I’m at it.  Then, he would make enough for a hotel.

He could also write books for 99 cents.

As soon as he gets money he needs to pay off his car first so he doesn’t have any more major bills and he will have a vehicle to travel around in.

I also suggested a gym membership – place to shower – it looks like a friend helped him with a membership which is good.

I told him how when I had no job no one helped me and I had to overdraft and take out cash advances because I can only count on very few people.

So he won’t get any money from me, but I could give him some valuable advice.

I told him he can ignore me or he can still be homeless and complain about being a failure.  It’s whatever he wants to do.

I’m curious if he will listen to my advice or not.  And working two jobs will keep him busy to not think about being homeless and having no place to go all the time.

Posted in Blog, Inspirations, Politics, Religion

Thinking about what to do about this.

A while back I had lent a then friend some money.  It wasn’t just $5 or $10, it was $150.  I really didn’t want to give that person any money because I knew that person would never pay me back.  I pitied my Internet friend and so I decided to help because Internet Friend was/is also homeless.  I hadn’t spoken to this former friend in a month or two because I was done allowing this individual to say offensive things about my beliefs.  The former friend may not have directly insulted me, but the “friend” was insulting everything I ever believed in so that “friend” may as well have been insulting me directly.

I told that “friend” that God exists because He removes people like that toxic person from my life and hadn’t spoken since.  A while has passed since that incident.  I decided to check out my former friend’s Twitter a day or two ago to see if former friend’s way has changed at all after we stopped being friends.  That person is still the same old self-pitying individual.

Part of me wants to send a message asking about my money.  Another part of me keeps telling myself I should be glad such an ungrateful person like that is no longer in my life.  I don’t need that person’s toxic energy and that I should cut my losses.  It’s the fact that this individual thinks it can pester me for my money and then insult me all in the same breath has me flabbergasted.  

I’m tempted to tag this person so that people know who I am talking about but I’m trying to be mature about it.  And that person’s life is miserable enough.  But does that person have the right to demand me to give some of my hard earned money and then not pay me back just because that person’s life is so miserable?  Does that person have the right to treat me the way that person did?

I could have gone out to eat with that $150 and enjoyed myself.  I didn’t have to lend it to that bastard, especially knowing that person would not pay me back.  It’s not my problem to solve other people’s problems.  I’ve been better about money lately and I’m not going to give it away like that ever again.  This was a while back.

I kept wondering if I was in that same exact situation – homeless, would that same person asking me for money give me $150 if I asked?  I kept wondering that.

Here’s what will happen if I decide to send a message:

1- I’m still not going to get my money back even if I say a few choice words to that person so what’s the point to say anything at all after we have not talked in almost two months?

2- That person still will not find anything wrong with the way it thinks.

So after analyzing this situation, I’m just going to bite my tongue and continue to try to not let it bother me and to focus on the good people in my life.

I pray that some good karma will come my way after this person treated me so horribly and didn’t pay me back.

This is why I haven’t lent people money in a long time.  Only one person has ever attempted to pay me back.  The next time anyone ever asks me for money, I’m going to say no because no one ever really pays me back.  And plus, I have my own bills to pay.