I finally found a decent long term job which I should have started after I graduated college. If only I had found this place after I graduated, but I lived in a different state then and things happened to delay me.
Dating is also not going really fast for me, either. I’m not asking to be married right away. I just want something steady. I’ve known some people who got married in only three months of dating and knowing each other. I’ve known some people who have gotten engaged in 6 months. Yet, I’m still here sitting patiently waiting wondering if it will ever go to the next step for me to just have it be a steady relationship. It’s exhausting. Sometimes I feel like giving up trying but I know one day I will get the relationship I want. Great things take time.
I’m good at making friends, but I can never get someone to officially declare we are in a relationship. I don’t want to rush things because I want a relationship to last and if we are meant for each other, we have eternity so I doesn’t need to be anything right now only just friends. Still, I see my other friends being able to say they’re actually in a relationship.
My life is going at a snail’s pace. I wonder if I will ever get that Condo or house that I want. I wonder if I will have that family I want. I wonder a lot of things that seems to look impossible right now.
People always say how am I able to be by myself in my room. I’ve learned not to depend on anyone for company as they sometimes get busy with life. So, I always busy myself watching my DVDs or work on my projects to pass the time to not think about hanging out with people when they’re busy.